As the days draw closer to October 11, I find myself unraveling little bits at a time. I thought I totally had this under control considering it was all his fault, and I needed to do what was right for me. Yet, I still find myself missing him and what we used to have.
I was so independent before I met him and I have to find that inside of me once again. I haven't been sleeping all too well, but I'll live with that for right now. I think that once "the day" passes I will be able to regain some sort of normalcy. But who even knows what normalcy is anymore?
I do see the silver lining out there somewhere and can't wait for the day when I can breathe easy.
"Believe" is the word that I'm living by today.
1 comment:
Hello,
I came across your blog by putting in a url I thought was that of another blogger I'd been reading with the same issue. She inspired me because I've been in the same situation as you----It was tough by I got through my day with serenity. I actually went to the beach where we were going to get married. but check out my blog www.cmecka.blogspot.com. You can see my "progress" so to speak from June when I started writing to the day of the wedding (sept 20) and on. I can't say I'm totally over it all yet. It sucks. I needed to understand myself more, but I was willing and wanting to keep him in my life instead of what happened. But stay strong and like you said..believe. C
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